That explains why I’m still up at 3:33 AM.
In a lot of ways, today’s been a tough day. Externally, it was actually a pretty good, productive day. But my mind is raging and after the sweet peace that prayer brings, there’s still all this excessive writing energy that’s left and I’m using the last of it for the night on here.
I’ve been meaning to update this thing for a while now but whenever I get to it, I forget what I wanted to write.
It’s amazing to still feel God’s love and mercy, to know that He chose me before the world was formed and that I am His for all eternity. So from point A (not that there was a finite point when He chose me… so let’s say that point A is just an arbitrary moment in eternity past) to point B (which extends through eternity future), God decided that I was His. So that makes all this time in between that much more secure. Get my drift?
There are times when I still do waiver. I get all these crazy questions in my head or there are certain things that severely discourage me and after despairing, do I realize the steadfastness of my God.
And that this God had already won me over, that He had already resolved to say to me that I am His, don’t worry about it, He’ll pay for it all.
And that this God is mine as well.
How sweet the gospel is.
